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New Inspiration

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Hey, everyone! 

No one probably remembers me anymore, and that is completely fine. I haven't been very active for a few years. I went through a hard time and lost a lot of passion for the things I normally love. My depression and anxiety became a very big cause of this. But this past year I have been getting a lot better. I still have my ups and downs, but I'm working on it. A lot has changed in the past year.

I'm at University! 
I'm finally studying my passion for languages. I'm studying Japanese and Chinese (Mandarin). I've been wanting to study these languages since I was 15 and I'm finally learning them. I used to do a lot of self-study for Japanese while I was in high school. Which proved extremely difficult. Because you cant practice your skills in any way so I didn't progress very well. It was difficult. But after working hard through TAFE, I got my ATAR mark and made it to Uni. I wasn't the best in school. My anxiety limited alot and therefore my studies suffered. I had to drop out in year 11 because I just couldn't handle the pressure. but here I am! In uni and stronger than ever!

I have lost friends and made friends!
The past few years I've made friends and lost friends. But the ones that really cared have stayed through everything. In no particular order, there is:

Helen, my adorable friend from China. I've known her since I was in year 9 (age 15-16). She was like a big sister from another culture. She taught me a lot and encouraged me. We are always laughing together. She is such a cutie. 姐姐,我爱你!

Amber, my wonderful friend from America. I've known her for 5 years also. She is my Chingu. She taught me a lot about art, she also encourages me through my tough times, as I encouraged her too. We often show each other our art. Even though she has been busy with her studies, we still keep in contact.

Jess, my crazy friend from high school. This girl is always hypo, a good match for me really. She is my "toilet buddy". If she ever read this she would get the joke. She has such a sweetheart and I'm grateful she is in my life.

Jarrad, my nerd friend from uni. Although he can be a real smart alec at times and a jokester, he is a really kind person. He has made our boring lectures a blast. Makes a joke out of every bad situation and puts a smile on everyone's face. ばか!

Bee, my friend since I was 7. Although we are busy with life and don't talk every day. I'm still grateful for the years she has been there for me. She is a role model for me. She works hard. She is sweet and gentle. Very elegant and beautiful. I wish I could be like her one day. She seems perfect to me. I sometimes get too shy to talk to her. But I know I can at any time. 

I love all these people. I cant write all about them here. It would take years to express how grateful I am to them for helping me. I seriously love you guys all so dearly. And I hope in time I can somehow show you that.

I have my first relationship!
His name is Sean. I met him on the 15th of June 2016. The first second we made eye contact, we both felt this amazing connection and became instant friends. I never thought I would be brave enough to ever fall in love, or let someone into my heart. But he showed me that it was okay, that not everyone will hurt me like my father did. That if I gave him a chance and opened up that I would see a whole new world that I have never had the privilege to experience before. I've been able to open my heart completely to him, even though it has taken a long time and I am still learning to trust more, I'm still having the best time of my life with him. He is my whole world. Relationships can definitely be hard at times as I've learned, but when you get through those times it is so worth it. I'm so grateful for the things he has taught me, shown me and helped me see and understand. I have learned a lot being with him. Thank you so much, Sean, for making me the person I am today. I love you.

Well, that's the important things that my life has had this year. All these things have given me my inspiration back. And I'm so grateful. Thank you to my friends and family that never gave up on me. Thank you.

I hope everyone is having a fun and very creative day. 
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Hey

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Hey it been a while but if you want something fun to listen to here

Shadow by Beast

Falling in love by 2NE1

Nature Boy by Jang Keun Suk or keun chan

What is your name by Team H

Bad Boy by BigBang

Fantastic baby BigBang 


Have fun and PLEASE DONT ASK IF THEY ARE GAY CAUSE THEY NOT!! ILL GET ALL THE KPOP PEOPLE ONTO YOU AND U WONT LIVE HAPPILY!!! TRUST ME!! THE KPOP FANDOM IS HUGE!! so just a warning for the furture dont bad mouth asians kpop people will hurt you!! lol 



















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Well school can get crazy and friends can get really stupid so lately i have been thinking of other art forms to get rid of my lonelyness of not having real friends i can count on (that's why im thankful for the friends i have on deviant art     ^-^) so i made this story it is for my English assignment but ill share what ive written.
Im already starting to feel better by getting it out. YAYA!!!!
heres my story (it still needs ALOT of work):

The Diary of an Evil Character

I don't know how long i've been here in this house, I don't know if its been days, weeks, months. All I know is i'm trapped in this frighteningly sweet house, I guess if i had been here a shorter time I would have described it as ghostly and disturbing. But I guess my mind has been changed by my experience here. How did I get to this dark house you say? Well if i tell you don't got running for the hills.
I was running down and dark old street when i tripped and fell. All i saw; when i fell down; was a dark shadow that kind of looked a bit like a man. Thats it. The next thing I saw was a grey, dreary room. It took me awhile to get my eyes focused on one object. The object interested me in my little world of confusion and despair. When i finally got my eyes to focus, I looked around. The room looked like it was styled with old english furniture. Except all black, the only light you could see was the light through a window, you could tell that it was cloudy from the light that came in the window.
"what a ghastly looking room!" I whispered
In that instant a voice shot through the air out of nowhere.
"what?!?! Don't you like my room for you?" said a echoing males voice later, echoing laughing.
I sat there frozen, Not budging. A cold shiver went through me.
"Awwwwwwww!!!! Is the little princess Sarah scared?!?!"
Then like mist a man shot to my face!
"Boo!" he said
I ran across the room and shot out of the room, behind me i could hear his running steps and him saying 'Wait! I'm not going to hurt you!'
I grabbed anything I could from the hallway i was proceeding through, A sword on a little table, Perfect!
I could here the man getting closer, In a matter of second I had grabbed the weapon and swing my body around with the sword straight and the level of my shoulders almost touching the man's chest, he had obviously stopped just in time.
"Come on we aren't playing dead or alive are we?" he said sarcastically
His voice i recognised, But from where I had no clue.
"WHERE AM I ?!!?" I screamed
He disappeared and showed up again behind me. placing his mouth close to my ear he whispered softly.
"Your new home."
I swung around again, but he was nowhere to be seen. I was alone and scared in a place, It wasn't the hallway! It looked like a living room. I don't know how; but i was there!
I started thinking of a way out, I was scareder than i have ever been before. I started going around to the windows. The windows were misty and grey. I tried pushing them up and down, but no movement. Just before i Banged the window, I heard a voice.
" You won't get out that way." Said the voice of the man who had trapped me here.
He was right, I hit the glass as hard as i could, the window felt like bricks. I screamed, not because I hurt my hand but because I was confused and fed-up.
"Ok! Ok!; Why have you put me here?!?!" Came calmly out of my mouth with a hint of anger, while i turned around and looked at the man that was hovering in the air on the other side of the room.
He was dressed in black pants with ripps at the bottom, A black long formal shirt with points at the front of the shirt, black boots with buckles that crumpled his pants, black messy styled hair and his cloths were styled just like the house, old english.
"Oh!!!! How rude of me; I haven't introduced myself!" Said the man hovering close to my face. "Damian! Damian King of the DARK UNKNOWN!!!!!!"
" You serious??" I said with an unimpressed tone.
"No dead serious, I don't know what i'm king of! My father ….."
I didn't wait around for the rest of his answer, within a flash I had ran passed him and around another corner across the room and into another corridor. I heard in the background the var away yell of Damian say "YOU wanna play?!! Alright! Lets play!" The way he said this got eviler as he said it.

For the next hour I would be running through passageways, broken old doors, long hallways that seemed to go forever. Damian was having fun, he was always a second behind me or in front of me. there would be slamming doors, things falling under my feets to make me trip, screams, evil laughs, joking laughs. Damian would say things like 'Look out' or 'Watch your head!'.
Even though i was scared out of my mind, i felt comfort. I felt safe but i didn't know it at the time.
I eventually got away from Damian. I don't understand how because he knows everything that happens in this house and who is in it. I found myself in another dark room.
"Blank!" I whispered "Why is this room empty?" I wondered how many rooms in this mansion where empty. I started to walk outside of the room into of course another hallway, I walked three steps forward and turned right. Standing in front of another door I went in. This room was a library. Book Stands as high as the ceilings were standing in front of me with all the wisdom they held, I got really excited. I didn't know which book to read. I ran around for what seemed hours collecting books and reading them, as many as i could.
"Knock!! knock!!!" echoed from the other side of the room
It scared the living daylights out of me! I slowly got of the pile deliciously comfy of pillows i found and was walking towards the door. Without a warning Damian came flying into the room with a tray of steaming dinner. "Thought you might be hungry! so i made this for you!" He said extremely excited handing me the tray. "Wait!; You... brought..me dinner! Aren't you the one that trapped me here in this house, scaring the living daylights out of me!"
"Yep! sure am, but even I get hungry and i'm immortal, but your mortal so you must get really hungry."
"Thanks, I guess."
And again without a warning Damian was gone.



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I just realised

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Ive just realised i have been on deviantART for 9 months and have learnt and gained so much. I have gotten better with my models and have made more friends so i just want to thank all who have helped me, watched me, commented on my stuff, gave me direction and those how have loved my stuff. thank you all. 
Speaking of models i love my newest model Lara bekboo83.deviantart.com/art/MM… she is so pretty thank you to  susumupicasso for helping me with the legs, they had pmx leg disease LOL. 
ALSO i want to thank 

AnimeNebula003

~MMD-Nay-PMD

for helping me alot along the way and of course all of the other users ive downloaded things from, and help from with tutorials and things like that.
Thank you! 
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Hey Everyone i dont really know what to write about but one thing i would love everyone to see is my blog! its my first time so if you goto this link freaklikesit.blogspot.com.au/
thx to all people who look at it
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